After my husband passed away from cancer, I took a day “off” to just be with the Lord. I told everyone what I was doing and asked them not to call or stopover. The intent was to observe a day of silence, a day of silent meditation and prayer where I could have a conversation with the Lord, ask Him questions, and listen for His answers.
I asked Him why Kenny had to die (he would have been 70 years old today). The answer blew me away; it wasn’t a matter of ‘why he died,’ but ‘why he lived.’ We all die from this world, so it’s never going to be a matter of ‘why,’ but rather, ‘when?’ Kenny and every other person in this world who has ever lived and who will ever live in the future was / will be put here for a reason. Each of our lives is intertwined and God is sovereign over all of it. Who are we to question Him?
Like Paul says in Romans 9:20 (ESV) “But indeed, O man, who are you to reply against God? Will the thing formed say to him who formed it, “Why have you made me like this?”
That day I took to focus on God and to just spend that much uninterrupted time praying, reading scripture, meditating, was probably the best thing I could have done. God understood my pain. I could cry and go through all of the stages of grief without having to worry about what people thought. I didn’t have to be strong for anyone. I didn’t have to put on a happy face. I could just feel what I felt and act out on those emotions. It was liberating. God comforted me.
And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.
Romans 8:28 ESV
If you’re grieving and live near me, my church is having a seminar on November 14th called “Surviving the Holidays,” to help those who’ve lost someone get through the holiday season. If you’re interested, contact me and I’ll connect you.
Please join me this week in praying for those who are mourning and grieving the loss of a loved one. Please pray for their comfort and healing. Pray that they seek help and don’t try to go through the process alone.